Shaka Zulu...now and then...Cont'd

Previously, I did say that I thought I was inside as far as African History was concerned...yes I am in...but I am in one of those bottoms groups that carry the african logo with pride yet with no full comprehension of what it really means to be pround of who Iam. That was before I came to America. So What changed between watching the movie in Africa and watching it now? Not to mentiont that the movie has been really cut short with some parts taken out. I could imagine what Ms Steven's was thinking when she saw me jumping up and down at the sight of the movie. probably the same thing that was going through my mind when I saw my Zambian friends become ecstatic at the sight of the movie. Crazy. So what happened between me watching it in Africa and watching it now?
I have come to grasp a whole new meaning to this movie. I kind of put a new value to this movie. I found out that what used to be mindless entertainment actually means a lot more. It has made me realize where I am from. It has made me realize the impact that Shaka Zulu had on me as an African and me as human being. In a way, it is educating me about the history that I missed when i was watching this movie in Africa.
There is also that Christianity part of the movie. this was probably the first time in Zulu History that the idea of Christ was introduced. So for the christians in that area, this movie means a whole different thing to them.
Then there is the African Americans watching it, getting to know a whole history that they never knew about before.
So back to the question of African History, am I "in"? This movie has given me a little insight on this particular subject. I am definately in the bottom list of those who are "in'. Pride is an awful thing, and I have to admit, I have a big dose of this problem. When people asked me about Africa, I knew enough to make them think that I was very knowledgable about my heritage. However, I am ashamed to say that I have forgotten most of my history. I know only bits and pieces, . So I am not really inside as I thought I was before. This however brings me to another question: what qualifies me to be an "insider"?